Turning the page.
Sometimes we pour so much love and efforts into someone.
So when we realize they are not willing to either look at you, or give you this little spark of love you need, to feel like it's all worth it.. or sometimes when you realize they have changed, or their feelings for you have changed, it's too much. Sometimes you feel like life is tormenting you, that God is playing cruel games, that timing is just wrong all the time.
Sometimes that one disappointment grows progressively and you don't know. And when you realize that it's impossible to be comfortable with that one person again, then you wonder "what did I do wrong?". That's if you have any sense of responsibility. Sometimes, you'll meet people who have none and who are able to bypass you as easily as if you were strangers. And they'll never know how much love you poured into them. And it's not like you wanted to get the exact same amount of love or efforts, but you were hoping somehow for this one sign of trust, of love... and when you realize you can't get it... well... it's a bit late.
I've tortured myself enough with you. I just want to turn the page now.
2 Comments:
It's sad when you give so much love and make so much effort for someone to only see it unrecognized in the end... or even worse, have it rewarded with ingratitude... well luckily, not everyone is like that. Hope you are surrounded with people who value the love you are giving them.
All the best wishes and power in the world to you as you enact the bravery to step up and make a change in your life for the better. I believe in your capability to find for yourself the light of true freedom.
Good luck to you, but perhaps more-so than that, congratulations to you.
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