Not crazy about it, not anymore.
I never thought I'd say that... but things are not as cool as I expected.
I've been thinking of Korea for two years, every single day... and no matter how hard things would get, in the end it was my one goal: to go back, charge my batteries and then face whatever I need to face. For me, Korea was another "home" but a home that I built on my own, with a family that I chose... The first time I went to Korea by myself it was magical. I was really happy to have found a place where I could belong. Well, not belong in the sense of fully belong and become a full Korean, but I still thought I had found my place in the world... Found this special little oasis I would always go back to when things get tough.
But now.. I am not so sure. Everything feels different. I changed, they changed, the feeling changed. Maybe that Oasis was just the result of one moment, that one timing. The people I know are still amazing and I love them oh so very much... but I don't know what it is. It's a very confusing feeling. Maybe when I come back in August, things will be different. Who knows. Maybe I'm just rushed cuz there are only three weeks and I am trying to see many people...
I wished I knew what the answer is. Right now, I just feel like I am lost.
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