I blame it on the weather
but I am a bit emotional these days...
I get super over happy for a moment, I get depressed the next moment.
I went to a Japanese friend's house for the afternoon. I finished preparing my presentation so I thought I deserved a break. The friend cooked for an amazing Nikujaga for me and as we were preparing and eating we talked about several things.
We had some hilarious conversations in the process. For example, she cooked for me and she invited me to her place, which I found very nice... So I should be of course grateful (assuming I am normal)... but then at some point she starts apologizing, saying "You must be hungry, I am so sorry it's not ready yet...hontou gomen".
Well, you'll say "She's being polite" and I realize that... but that very sorry face she made at that moment was just such a sight. I couldn't help but laughing at her cute-ness.
"You cleaned your place, you bought groceries, you came to get me at the metro, and now you are cooking for me... and you're sorry?!?! I should be sorry for putting you through so much trouble!!!" is what I said... And then it turned into a never-ending game of apologizing and all. In the end, we had a good laugh and decided to drop the over-politness wall. It almost turned into a jokingly opposite dialog. "Yeah, you made me wait, apologize". "Well you didn't have to wait, go home!" followed by a laughter outburst... Good times...
And now I am here, writing on this computer... And I am feeling something very strange... I just can't tell what it is.. but it makes me feel sad. For the first time in weeks, the thought "wow I really want somebody to hold me in their arms right now" popped up in my mind.
Doushite darou...
2 Comments:
some studies said that to be happy an human being needs at least 14 demonstrations of affection during the day...maybe you didn't quite get your quota...
maybe...
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