Spent the afternoon with M(A)* after class... who impressively, after eating dinner (including dessert la), went back for more chicken and fries. I don't know where she puts it, it's ridiculous. It was a very enjoyable time tho. Good talks and insights + Productive studying time (except for that ridiculous nap I took). So many things to be thankful for la. 오늘 정말 고마웠어... 너랑 같이 있을때 정말 편하게 be myself 있을 수 있는 느낌. 우리 성격이 좀 비슷해서 그런가? ㅋ 암튼 우리 요즘 친해져서 정말 기쁘다... And it's nice we can talk openly about so many things... Today's talk kinda stayed in my mind la...
Hypocrisy is a skill, they say. Pretending that you're something. The best hypocrites/liars are in fact the ones who are able to even convince themselves that their lies are true. There's however nothing more hurtful than realizing that someone you thought you knew revealed to be the total opposite of whatever you thought they were. I mean, not in the sense that you would find out something new about them, but rather when you realize that all along they played you in a way that would lead you to trust them and in the end your relationship was based on a web of lies. Or perhaps you were just so complacent about the beauty of the relationship that you would refuse to see the truth as it is... Anyways. Not to be negative, but I really can't stand hypocrites...
Another way to look at this would be that it's quite funny how you knew certain people before and had such a good opinion of them and after months or years, something makes your vision of them change. Then you realize that as much as people change, there might just be the fact that some rotten part you're starting to see in them now, was always there but you were just too blinded by some sort of love to take a real look at it. Or it might just be that one disappointment is difficult to get over... But anyways, on a more positive note, there is the opposite situation where you had no special opinion about someone but the more you get to know them, the more you appreciate their presence and the things you find out about them. As frustrating as the first feeling is, the second one is gratifying...
오늘 핫티슈가 아팠대.... 괜춘한가?
아프지마... 아프면 나두 아프잖아......
Got a message yesterday from senpai who seems to be reading this blog very carefully! lol Thanks so much for always dropping by... And thanks for your kindness... it was so sweet.
Yeah, so I got to think about a lot because I always think of so many things... And as much as I find it hard sometimes to understand people and as much as I sometimes suffer from interaction with people..... I also realize that my life is so lucky for having so many miraculous meetings and pleasant time spent with such amazing people.... I guess I am really blessed.. And it may seem like I'm yo-yoing all the time between my frustrations and my joy to be living... but I never forget the fact that all those incredible people by my side are one reason for me to keep trying hard at everything... Wow, I'm feeling very thankful today...
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