Well I don't think I still have readers, but I just like to write here. It somewhat allows me to release a looot of stress. The only other way is a open hearted talk with my prof, but she's quite busy herself... and... our schedules don't match, I just have to learn to live without her (thank god it's only for another 8 months).
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I think I like my busy life schedule in general, but not when I'm sick. I've been sick for only a few days and I've been crashing down since then. Had to take time off work, had to delay exams. I'm coughing so hard that I feel like I'm a walking virus. Anyone who gets close to me might just be stuck with the same virus within a matter of minutes.... Anyways. It's somewhat nice to have time off though. Just because the boss seems to be on his sensitive nerves these days... Everything good that I do, he doesn't see and everything I do that's wrong seems to tick him off severely. Maybe my absence is good for him too.
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Speaking of people who seem to be irritated with me these days, there's another unexpected one... but I honestly can't figure out why and he won't tell me why. Well admittedly, I'm on a sensitive nerve myself and I've been sleeping 4 hours a night in the past month, so I can't quite say I'm the most pleasant person now. Fair enough. I should just not complain and not try to confront him about it. Things will get better, won't they.
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On the good side of things, I'm getting closer to certain people I had never expected to meet before this year and I'm glad things are going well socially. I already miss EY onni who left this morning to Korea though, but I know she'll be back soon... I hope...
School is going well. I just have to keep things up as they are. There come my A's and my GPA Distinction. I just need to keep the same beat up for a whole year. Korean is okay, I still am annoyed by so many things but I'm trying to make more efforts. German is a joke. Though I can feel the prof's desperate attempt to pretend she likes teaching. But I do miss Cathrin Winkelmann. What a teacher she was. Harsh, but passionate. Italian is finally starting to get better. The teacher seems to notice my efforts, she finally seems to come around and appreciate my presence, by calling on me several times in a row, which she never had. I no longer feel like a useless piece of ignored meat. Japanese is slowly coming back, though it's not quite the level it used to be yet. I was complimented by my Japanese teacher today, which was a really warming moment for me in these depressing days of being cold and sick. (However I feel she might not like me as much once she sees the exam I took today... it was much harder than I thought it was. )
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Anyways. Though I am tired and lacking sleep, as long as I'm doing okay school-wise and socially, I think I'm fine. Now all I need, is a beat to have some time home and rest.
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