It's the first time she opened up to me saying clearly "I'm not okay. This and that is happening". I feel of course somewhat happy that she did. I feel like she trusts me. It makes me feel special, since I know she doesn't open up easily. I know she usually keeps it all in and brushes everything and everyone away with her smile and wits. This time she didn't. She said things were difficult for her. She said she wanted to run away. She even called me her energy and thanked me for creating some happiness in such a difficult time. Of course, I'm happy to be there and I'd give my life to make things better for her. But at the same time, I feel somewhat frustrated with myself. This time is different from all other times... I've been depending on her so much. She's so far away. So much older than me. All my good intentions are somewhat turned to dust since I know I am unable to do anything for her. I'm just this kid who wished I could fly. I just want to take that pain away from her.
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