Noone ever confused me the way you did.
It's funny that I would be confused about you, actually. Not family, not a lover, haven't known or seen each other so much... haven't seen each other in more than 6 months. Yet, I can't take you off my mind. I am worried in a way I shouldn't be. Your presence somehow helped me straighten so many things about my personality, helped me stabilize my life, helped me strive harder in everything I do. I am only thankful for everything you've done for me. You've shown me a part of myself I didn't think could come out. You've also shown me that trusting someone is a difficult process that I shouldn't rush and that people who are meant to be by my side will be and won't leave it so easily. An obvious fact to some, but you really enlightened me in that way. I've had many bad experiences with people and expectations and I thought somehow I'd never stand up again and be able to face more, but you gave me energy to try, on top of giving me the chance to be part of your life... When I doubt, I only need to remember you're somewhere out there. The weekly message I get from you is my source of strength these days. These are only but a few things that come up to my mind when I think about you. You just gave me so much.
And even though you did so much, I can never give you back half of these things the way I wished I could. Blame it on the age difference or the distance. I know clearly that I can't, but I know that you know that... and I know you'll understand me no matter what happens. You've shown me my limitations and you've shown me not to be ashamed of them. If there's indeed a god in the skies looking over us, I wanna thank him for pointing me out to you. That peace I feel within my heart, that peace I'd been seeking for so long before, it's in great part thanks to you.
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