Wow, my last post dates back from November 2008.
What was I doing then? Prolly hanging out with my Prof in Korea...
People wonder why I like her so much and they make fun of me and stuff, but it's just that they don't understand that feeling. I feel maybe noone will ever understand that... cuz if they really did, I'm sure they wouldn't make fun of it... Anyways that's just me being ideal about people again. People are not meant to understand each other, they're too focused on their own world.
So I came back from Korea completely destroyed, thinking I'll lose everything I gained in Korea and thinking that Montreal was the shittiest place in the world. The reverse culture shock, as they call it. Everything seems so much better elsewhere....
Kept getting disappointed in things I saw, the people I met and most of all in my own self. Gosh, I really hated myself when I came back. I was starting to act like before.. like I owed everything to everyone and I should do everything they want.... But I finally went back to normal mode and started being a little more B-blooded, as they say. No more putting up with all the "I don't have to understand your reasons, but please understand mine" shit.
Anyways, I gave myself 2 months to get over the culture shock... but it took a little longer.
I had to get over the lame technology, the bad transportation systems and go back to the everyday routine of the McGill student... Intense depression. I also thought I was losing my prof and all those awesome people whom I met in Korea (and before Korea)....
But then thanks to that prof, I realized that a person who really cares will stick by your side, even if you don't realize it. Little gestures are often the ones that are neglected... but looking back at it, I found out, that she was always around thinking of me in all those moments when I needed her to... even if I was selfish and realized it later.
Thanks to her I also learnt that true friends, no matter how bad you are at keeping in touch, they'll be around in the end... That's quite a fact if you look at how Sumi, Heeja and I are still that close despite the distance we went through over the years. We don't need to talk everyday to know we care about one another... and we know there's none of that "sure I say I will but I won't" shit between us. No O-seiji, no 빈말. Just honest thoughts.
I think I've met too many people whom I can't trust... But then again, my disappointment towards those people is my own fault. I shouldn't have expected so much in the first place....
Anyways, it was all worth it, since in the end I also met awesome people.
What more. Oh yeah, I had the greatest birthday ever this year. With some real people. ^^
I should be thankful.
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