I think that looking back at things after some time is always beneficial. I spent so much time hurting over things that I over thought about, missing people that were not around me, grudging over things that bothered me... Now when I look at all that, I think it was a necessary part of the whole "process of growing up"... Wow, sounds like a speech out of a B category movie.... But seriously, after looking at things in perspective tonight, I feel much better and I feel I'm on the right way to a better understanding of things in general...
Could I have done things differently back then? Maybe not. Would I do things differently given a similar situation? Definitely. I seriously think that even some things seem to make perfect sense at a given time, it might not make sense later. I'm impulsive and I'm working on it. But give me a second chance and I'll do my best not to blow it. I'm hoping that some other situations I've been caught in will change in the same positive way. With time, everything is possible. I just want things to get better in a number of ways... I'm just not so great at expressing it at the right time with the right words. Clumsy me.
What else... Things that made my day.
Oppa came all the way to my place just to make me porridge when he heard that I was sick. I was so touched, I really felt like hugging him... but if I did that may have been a step too quick? It's such a strange sensation. He was so sweet too...
Me: Omg... you came all the way here?
Oppa: It was on my way.
Me: What? From where?
Oppa: From my church, it's on the orange line, like Jean Talon.
Me: Isn't your church at Villa Maria? It's like on the totally opposite side.
Oppa: .............Ok, it wasn't on the way. But who cares. It doesn't take much time. Do you have rice? I'll make you porridge.
Happy moments. That excitement before seeing each other... the nervosity when I get that phone call... ^^; Maybe these are the most precious moments and I should cherish them more... Not like in the past when I was taking things for granted.
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